Is It Love or Lust? MMM Just Maybe Baby!

I have been out of the dating circus for almost four years.  Omg, so when I decided to look into maybe ah ah ah, dating, I had to do an about face, because was I ready for love, or was I looking to just get laid?  Coming to terms, or dealing with your emotions can be exhausting to say the least.  In the three years that when by to quickly, I have invested highly in the most valuable commodities, and that was me! So back to love or laid, I put an ad and met someone, that was so highly wound up, woo-hoo let me tell you, not happening.  Then the next man was a lunch date, and that was such a refreshing experience.  The man brought me flower, beautiful, and lunch and company was more than ok.  Now to the getting laid emotions, not a young inexperienced woman, but a well kept and cared for, emotionally ready older woman, that just can't get into sex with someone that I don't love.  When I say love, let me clarify it; I love my friends both male and female, so for me there are definitely many levels of love.  So to just have sex for the hell of it, is so not me.  But for that special man I will trust to be my lover, well good God almighty, he will get both from me; love and lust all within the high end of the healthy perimeters.  Lol, wow it really sets you free, to just be you, and love every moment we're here.  So take a bit, if you will but that's going to leave a mark!

Setting Ourselves Free

SOF:
Setting ourselves free, from all the dramas,  trauma, and anything between the lines.
Our wondrous heart knows what, and when it needs, it's our stubbornness that gets us off course.  So what now, what next?  Well first get our heads out of, you know where, ok I'll play nice get our heads out of the sand holes , there is that better?  I like to think of it as, we are free falling, with our eyes wide open.  The adrenalin high, the omg I'm going to die, or wow, this is truly the coolest thing that has ever happen to me!  Now honestly I have felt all these things, but now I want more of the coolest thing happening to me, everyday, in the simplest to extraordinary things.  To have the dare-devil attitude to love, and be loved, and love like, that free falling into it.  Now, that's my heart speaking loud and proud!  So I have started taking back, what I gave so freely to the wrong people, and giving it out big, by how I smile, and cooking with so much love in it, it's intoxicating  I'm sure.  Our hearts really knows how to love, and be loved, so just for today, practice listening to your heart.  When your talking with someone, that you are attracted too, but are not wanting to get hurt, stop right there and listen; is your heart beating faster, and stronger. Sometimes learning to trust ourselves is as hard as trusting someone else.  My New Years resolution is; to trust myself first.  

What? Did I Just Miss Something?

There have been many times when, I felt this so strongly!  I would have to say, this was when I was burning the candle at both ends.  Did love just walked up to me, and say hello?  And was my reaction, awe he was just being nice, his nice to everyone.  Lol, I must have lost my mind right?  But how many, many times do we do this crazy act of insanity?  They say, the eyes are the gateway to our souls.  So in life yes we get it all wrong at times, and then there are those incredible moments, when we not only get it, we score big!  I was listening to the pastor's message today, and he gave an example of us being spheres as individuals, that connecting together when we worship, that connects us to the ultimate sphere of God.  This so connect, and resonate with my soul.  So in my journey in a healed heart speaking out, I have accepted that, I will and do screw up most of the time, and big.  But I have to look for the diamonds in the ruff, and know that I am too, that diamond, that is polished by pain, purged by fire, and brilliant by design.  In the simplest terms I will use is; don't sweat it; roll with the punches;  let it roll off you, like water off a duck, really?  I get such a kick of all the phrases, to make the same point, it tickles my funny bone.  So What, if we miss something:!  Is it big, sometimes it will be, will this be the end to life we know it?  For some yes, but most no, life does not come with a manual, that tells you what to look for, and watch out for either.  And if there was a manual, I can most assure you, I would screw it up, and not in defiance, but as one that does truly walk to the beat of a different drum, strum.  Until the next time, my hopes for you is, much peace in your hearts, as listening towhat our heart has to say!