Sick Of Being Sick!

Ok now that was a mouthful, Sick of being Sick!  As I have reached the wonder age of 1/2 a century lol, the wisdom of living & growing through the bull, that reveals the beautiful roses that I am.  Now to the being sick of being sick.  So what we feed our bodies & minds will and do affect our overall self. So the saying, "you are what you eat,", &  "you are what you think," are key components to our physiology  Until we deal with the past it will fester in us, and make us very sick or die!  I say, "amen to that one!"  The funny & strange thing is that when we finally let go of the garbage, our bodies are so tired, and somewhat weak, due to the toxic or uplifting thoughts we are feeding our mind that stimulate our world.  Bringing me back to, sick of being sick, because now that I am feeding my body & mind with good & uplifting thoughts & meditation, and all the medications.  Of course my body is tired & weak, I had just about wore it out.  So now is the hard part, being patience and giving myself time to heal, and not rushing it.  So my sweets, the choice is yours, to make it as hard, or as simple as you decide.

Practice What We Preach!

Ok an example I will give you is; a nutritionist that is very obese, teaching you how to eat.  Well lets not jump into conclusions, that this nutritionist isn't practicing what they preach.  Because there are health issues to consider, who are any of us to judge!  But sad to admit we do, I do judge.  It is an everyday occurrence, we are program from very young on how we look at things.  Our parents a big influence on how we perceive the world. Etc; fat people are lazy, fat people are sad, fat people need special attention, fat omg I could go on, and on.  I am using this etc as it pertains to the nutritionist, I'm not picking on obese persons.  You see our mind, body, spirit balancing is so important in all aspects of life.  Our hearts should be treat with a love that  respect and protect it from any form of abuses.  This self love will and does links into all arena of life.  Etc.; spiritual connection, healthy body & mind & spirit, great jobs, community involvement.  A healed heart speaks out, is not perfect by one way, but by trial and error, till we find our own sync in life.  But back to the obese nutritionist, it is so easy to talk the talk, but when it come to walking the talk, now that is when it get fun.  Ok, not really but is could.  I am a living testimony to the fact that until you face your demons; whatever they maybe, you will stay stuck, lost and more likely to feel sorry for your self.  The most liberating thing of all, is _________________________!  You fill in the blank.  For me it was the simple act of love that I gave so freely to others, to me!  Amazing hum, who would have thunk it!  Here is a good quote;" preaching to the choir," let remember leave the preaching for the preachers.   Be an example of what your sharing, this is so very important; offer your help, but wait till they are ready.  Ok, here another quote; "you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink it."  Well for now; heart to heart be and know your loved!

Oops It's Been A While!

Wow, how time fly when you not having fun!  lol.  Anyways so much has happen, both good and not so good.  However I am so thankful either way.   Believe me this was not an easy place to get t0o.  How strange it is to come to realize, that I allowed a rejection to rules my world for a time.  The key here, is for a time and as in all thing, healing come after we admit to ourselves, that we were and or are still hurting.  Little or big hurt, doesn't matter, what matter is our actions we take after the fact.  It is so funny how after a serious breakup some, ok most of us want revenge!  I get this, really I do, but what a waste of life, of plotting and allowing bitterness to take control.  Then there is the victim role that I will admit I was an academy award winner.  What a waste again of precious time.  There does come a time when that the person that broke your heart has moved on, and with someone new.  There you are stuck in the murky mess that we choose to waddle in.  So I say the best and far more enjoyable thing to do, is go on with life and love.  This doesn't mean you jump into the next relationship without giving yourself time to heal, because the next love deserves a health loving partner, with minimal baggage.  So where am I in all this wonderful opportunities?  I'm in the discovering of what a wonderful loving and respecting woman I am.  So am I ready to jump into the relationship ring?  Mmm maybe, maybe not, but the one thing I do know is that my heart is beating stronger, wiser, and with a new found respect.  Because when it is all said and done, the only thing we have control of, it our own actions.  No need of pretending your not hurt, because believe it or not, most people can see through your acting.  So I highly recommend, do what works for you, but there is a say,"If you do what you always did, your get what you always got."  Now this really through me for a loop, because I had all the answers, I mean I was at the time very young, naive and all so gullible.  Talk about a recipe for disaster!  The good news is, I don't know everything, and what fun would that be?  Life is a live and learning experience, that we get a fresh start every morning. 

I'm A Work In Progress!

I'm a work in progress!  Mmmm I wonder if there is a 12 steps for broken hearts?  Seriously!  Anyways, I believe that to be spiritually connected is the key, to everything in life.  There are so many expression of spirituality, and well I truly believe that when we connect, it connect us to greater possibility.  It makes the impossible, possible.  I have never blogged, and since I'm on this journey of healing my body, mind & spirit.  I would blog it, to share with others of this incredibly painful, joyful event.   As a kid in school, I was the one that would ask the question, everyone else want to know, but were afraid to ask.  And the funny, strange thing is I was so shy.  So the fall down on your face and get back up, and dust yourself, is just the kind of woman I am.  So I guess you could say I have lots of practice and experience.  Well I'm having brain fog, due to fighting off the flu.

Now starts the fun stuff!

It's been a rough few days!  I have had the wonderful, ok, I'm being sarcastic.  I had to visit the emergency room two times this week.  So I have been somewhat distracted.  I am a survivor of a pulmonary embolism, and that my friends was enough to stop a heart, no pun intended.  So back to the subject in hand.  The title to my blog, "A Healed Heart Speaks,"  well most of us have lived through many heartaches, and heartbreaks.  So I am referring to, the moving on with life, and loving again.  I have to saying I using to bounce back much more quickly, than my last relationship.  But the great news is we can, will and do move on.  Sometime all on our own, and other time with by with a little or a lot of help from our friends.  I can hear the Beatles' song, "I Get By With A Little Help From My Friends."  Then sometime from therapy, groups, this is not for everyone, but don't knock it, till you've tried it.  What I have found for myself, is that I had to see, and learn to love myself first.  This is not brain surgery, but dear God it only took me some 29 years, plus the 20+ year experience to get this down. lol  Life is so incredible, and incredibly short!  So call it in-tuning, spiritualism, mantra's find your sync, and sink your teeth into it.  Because at the end of the day, why do we care if someone didn't love us, there loss.  But if we don't love and respect ourselves, how can we ever expect someone else too.  We are all amazing, incredible, wonderful beings, we just have to realize it, and manifest it!  Simple, real it is.  We just have to listen to our heart, and say it loud and proud, " We are Loved!"  Because we love ourselves first!  Well I'll be back!  Sending out some L-O-V-E!

Starting somewhere!

Beat Still My Heart!

You might believe, that there is no way one can claim to have a healed heart.  You maybe be right, as it apply to you, as for I, I know that a heart is a living, breathing organ, that suffers at the hand of the one it is beating for. The abuse  this wonderful organ, undergoes is unending, and yet it manages to survive countless attacks. Weather it by the food(s), or addiction(s), our heart fights to survive all these self-inflicted abuses.  Then the pain, that love, or the lack of love, that makes or breaks our heart.  Another thing that the heart is subjected too. So back to a healed heart, and my answer, and believe is that the heart does heal.  And if we are smart, we will protect it, and give it love as often as possible.  For what a waste of space, if we after the countless heartaches we didn't surrender to love again, and again, and yes again!  I am only giving a testimony,  I am not a medical professional, but since I do have a heart, and have had 
many heartbreaks, and with that said, I believe this make me an excellent expert!  Well enough for now, since I have given enough to chew a while... lol